Day 8
Wed. June 25th
6:45 am
Kami Update:
I will never be the same.
Last night I gave my will over to The Lord. I finally realized that I was still trying to dictate how this was going to end, and having great faith it was going to end my way. I have the faith, I have the support, and I have the will, but I was on my side- not the Lords in all of this.
Last night I did the scariest thing I have ever done. I wholeheartedly accepted The Lord's will. I begged him for comfort to accept it, and move forward if it wasn't the outcome I wanted. I had a good plan, Chase lives, he wakes up, he heals and progresses miraculously. It's a great plan, but I promised to trust his plan was better.
Last night I gave my will over to The Lord. I finally realized that I was still trying to dictate how this was going to end, and having great faith it was going to end my way. I have the faith, I have the support, and I have the will, but I was on my side- not the Lords in all of this.
Last night I did the scariest thing I have ever done. I wholeheartedly accepted The Lord's will. I begged him for comfort to accept it, and move forward if it wasn't the outcome I wanted. I had a good plan, Chase lives, he wakes up, he heals and progresses miraculously. It's a great plan, but I promised to trust his plan was better.
I woke up this morning a little lighter. I know who I am! I am a daughter of God. He loves me, and I love him. I will never be the same after this experience. I will never look at someone hurting or in need the same again. I will never look at the opportunity to give someone a meal during a hard experience the same again.
In all of this I have watched my husband move from one grieving family to the next in the waiting room. Listening, comforting, and giving hope and laughter to people who were drowning In fear and pain. They want to know why we smile and glow when things are so dark. We fear not, because he is God! We have had other ways to serve people in the hospital. It is so amazing to be able to be an Instrument in The Lord's hands and forget ourselves a little bit. How did I miss this part of charity and service? I get to be part of someone's miracle - so cool!
In all of this I have watched my husband move from one grieving family to the next in the waiting room. Listening, comforting, and giving hope and laughter to people who were drowning In fear and pain. They want to know why we smile and glow when things are so dark. We fear not, because he is God! We have had other ways to serve people in the hospital. It is so amazing to be able to be an Instrument in The Lord's hands and forget ourselves a little bit. How did I miss this part of charity and service? I get to be part of someone's miracle - so cool!
It's one thing to say "thy will be done", and it's another thing to actually live "thy will be done." Today is a new experience. I am going to spend my first day of "thy will be done" I spent 36 years living "my will be done" so it will take some work. If I was a betting woman though, I'd bet on me!
So please pray for us, and we will pray for you. We will pray that regardless of what the outcome of this adventure is, you will also be able to accept his will.
Now that I am done fighting God, I have more energy to fight for my son. We have two surgeries to tackle today for a feeding tube and a trach.
Hopefully his numbers come down after that so we can Wake Up Chase!
Hopefully his numbers come down after that so we can Wake Up Chase!
3:30 pm
Chase Update: They cancelled Chases surgeries today because his ICP numbers were too high. We were disapointed but not surprised.
It has been a week since Chases accident. I can't believe how many miracles and changes he has brought about in such a short time. We pray that you have been blessed with your own miracles this week, and recognize the hand off God.
We are praying that Chases ICP numbers drop significantly so he can have his surgeries. Unfortunately they are in the high 20's, and the nurses are doing everything they can to keep them that low we also pray that we can all accept the hand of The Lord and his plan. He has a really good plan.
It has been a week since Chases accident. I can't believe how many miracles and changes he has brought about in such a short time. We pray that you have been blessed with your own miracles this week, and recognize the hand off God.
We are praying that Chases ICP numbers drop significantly so he can have his surgeries. Unfortunately they are in the high 20's, and the nurses are doing everything they can to keep them that low we also pray that we can all accept the hand of The Lord and his plan. He has a really good plan.
Day 9
Thurs. June 26th
7:30 am
Thurs. June 26th
7:30 am
Kami /Chase update:
I felt bubbly and a little giddy this morning. Can you feel it too? I'm still in bed, I don't know what's going on at the hospital with Chase. I don't know what kind of night he had, but seriously something changed even if we never get confirmation of what it is.
Yesterday evening the Doctor basically told us he was on 3-4 different sedatives, and one of them should have made him seem brain dead, but no matter what they do he still responds to sound, voices, light, and jostling him about. One of the drugs the brain dead one ( I think it's called pentobarbital / nasty stuff) they can't get anymore, and another they cant get because of a national shortage. We have been telling them all along that the drug weren't working and he was responding to us, but now they are believing us. We should be terrified because he still has swelling and he needs heavy sedation. Nope- Not worried!!!!!! The only thing that works is the gas they had him on in the OR but the doctor said he can't stay in the OR for 4 days lol. So by Saturday he will be without the sedatives he "needs"
From the first moment someone said the word tracheotomy, everything in me rejected it. I told everyone it wasn't for him, and over a period of days my friends, family, and the medical staff have "convinced" me it what's best for Chase. Whether it was my own fears or whether it was my Heavenly Father speaking to my heart, I no longer had any valid reason to say no to the operation. So I did what I have learned to do best, I gave it to The Lord. Well last night the doctor was unsure if he would be able to give him one because of the sedation problems. So I am excited to see what happens. Regardless I would like to know if it was my fears or if it truly was him tell me he doesn't need it. I was right about him keeping his Kidney, and I REALLY like to be right.
The car insurance agent called yesterday to tell us we had $ 30,000 of medical coverage and they got a bill from the fixed wing life flight plane for $22,000. I laughed and said he rode a helicopter, a plane, and an ambulance in less that 2 hours so his job should be done by the end of the day. He asked me how he was and cried a little for us. I find myself comforting strangers daily.
I felt bubbly and a little giddy this morning. Can you feel it too? I'm still in bed, I don't know what's going on at the hospital with Chase. I don't know what kind of night he had, but seriously something changed even if we never get confirmation of what it is.
Yesterday evening the Doctor basically told us he was on 3-4 different sedatives, and one of them should have made him seem brain dead, but no matter what they do he still responds to sound, voices, light, and jostling him about. One of the drugs the brain dead one ( I think it's called pentobarbital / nasty stuff) they can't get anymore, and another they cant get because of a national shortage. We have been telling them all along that the drug weren't working and he was responding to us, but now they are believing us. We should be terrified because he still has swelling and he needs heavy sedation. Nope- Not worried!!!!!! The only thing that works is the gas they had him on in the OR but the doctor said he can't stay in the OR for 4 days lol. So by Saturday he will be without the sedatives he "needs"
From the first moment someone said the word tracheotomy, everything in me rejected it. I told everyone it wasn't for him, and over a period of days my friends, family, and the medical staff have "convinced" me it what's best for Chase. Whether it was my own fears or whether it was my Heavenly Father speaking to my heart, I no longer had any valid reason to say no to the operation. So I did what I have learned to do best, I gave it to The Lord. Well last night the doctor was unsure if he would be able to give him one because of the sedation problems. So I am excited to see what happens. Regardless I would like to know if it was my fears or if it truly was him tell me he doesn't need it. I was right about him keeping his Kidney, and I REALLY like to be right.
The car insurance agent called yesterday to tell us we had $ 30,000 of medical coverage and they got a bill from the fixed wing life flight plane for $22,000. I laughed and said he rode a helicopter, a plane, and an ambulance in less that 2 hours so his job should be done by the end of the day. He asked me how he was and cried a little for us. I find myself comforting strangers daily.
So I guess if Chase is sick of sleeping we better keep praying his swelling drops so he can wake up safely because he is going to wake up whether anyone wants him to or not. If you know him, you're not suprised by any if this are you?
We have another family in the waiting room with us. Their husband/father/brother/son is Justin. They don't know God, so we comfort them the best we can and try and give them hope. He had similar injuries plus a broken body, and he doesnt have the benefit of the brain plasticity that Chase has. Will you pray for Justin, and his family in addition to project Wake Up Chase? We are Legion! God bless you and keep you until we see you soon.
We have another family in the waiting room with us. Their husband/father/brother/son is Justin. They don't know God, so we comfort them the best we can and try and give them hope. He had similar injuries plus a broken body, and he doesnt have the benefit of the brain plasticity that Chase has. Will you pray for Justin, and his family in addition to project Wake Up Chase? We are Legion! God bless you and keep you until we see you soon.
5:30 pm
Chase update: Thursday June 25th 5:30pm his numbers are lower 19-23 today, but they climb as soon as his medication starts to wear off. They may or may not do a trach tomorrow, and he will start to come out of sedation starting Sunday. It will take probably 2-3 days to get the sedation completely out of him, and if his numbers sky rocket they will have to do their best to sedate him again. Just a lot of waiting, hoping and praying. He is healing on the outside so he must be healing on the inside. At this rate the stitches on his face and his bruising will be gone and healed before he wakes up, heck he may not even know he got a hair cut if it continues like this. Our spirits are high, and we are celebrating the little victories! One more day closer to Chase waking up- God is good.
Day 10
Fri. June 27th
7:00 am
Kami Update: Aaaaaaaaaaah! This waiting around with no change stinks. I pray The Lord grants me patience, but hopefully he knows me well enough to throw me a bone today.
Here is what we know- no feeding tube in his stomach, no tracheotomy. He is too unstable with his ICP numbers. Same -same They are doing a CT scan this morning- my guess is it looks a little better than last time. He still starts coming off the paralytics and sedation tomorrow, but only because they don't have a choice. This is some scary stuff. Logically we know he is healing and progressing slowly, but our human nature wants it to happens NOW!
Today we pray that even though his ICP numbers are high, his brain can handle waking up. If it be the lords will, we pray his swelling will decrease significantly over the next few days in preparation to his waking. Please keep praying for Justin. (Chase's ICU neighbor) and his family. Thank you for you comments, likes, messages, and visits. They have filled my days of waiting. Thank you for your prayers, faith, and hope.
Today we pray that even though his ICP numbers are high, his brain can handle waking up. If it be the lords will, we pray his swelling will decrease significantly over the next few days in preparation to his waking. Please keep praying for Justin. (Chase's ICU neighbor) and his family. Thank you for you comments, likes, messages, and visits. They have filled my days of waiting. Thank you for your prayers, faith, and hope.
PS Brooklyn comes home today! It will be so great to be all together again.
7:50 pm
Chase Update: The doctor said his CT scan looks good. Less swelling and a little brain shift the right way. His ICP level were between an 18-22 today, we are slowly seeing a decrease in pressure each day. When they took him to get a CT scan his pressure went up to 40 in the 6 minutes he was laid flat. There will definitely be no trach or feeding tube for a while. He is being fed through an IV today which increases the chance of infection,but he needs food. Hopefully his stomach can handle being fed through the gut tomorrow. With all the swelling from the kidney damage, and edema from the billions of drugs he is on, his stomach is so swollen. Feeding him in this stomach has caused his ICP numbers to rise previously, but it is more ideal so we will try again. He is off the phentabarbital tomorrow. He is healing but it's so slow inside. The outside of him is a different story. The swelling in his face is gone, his black eyes gone, and his hair has an 1/8th inch of growth already. His stitches on the side of his right temple will come out soon, and his color is good.
I am actually rooting for a trach now because that means he will be well enough to lay flat for 20-30min.
Please continue to pray for Chase's swelling to decrease, and God-Willing for him to recovery fully.
10:30 pm
Phil Update: Hi again.. Kami did a great post earlier if your not friends with her already I suggest that you friend her. Most post and updates she makes. Today we had some good doc visits and some more explanations. Tonight I'll just say chase is getting a little better every day. Please keep praying for him.
I would also like you all to please continue to pray for Justin and his wife. He is in very similar circumstances as Chase but with out the amazing church family and 2000 miles from home. Their kids went home today and the mother/wife is having some major panic issues. Thank you again for your love prayers and support. We love you and thank God and pray for you hourly.
I would also like you all to please continue to pray for Justin and his wife. He is in very similar circumstances as Chase but with out the amazing church family and 2000 miles from home. Their kids went home today and the mother/wife is having some major panic issues. Thank you again for your love prayers and support. We love you and thank God and pray for you hourly.
Day 11
Sat. June 28th

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